1st post of 2018 and I hope everyone is off to a great start as for myself I am keeping busy busy busy !! and I was back and forth trying to figure out what kinda positive thing I can write about with out sounding too negative, does that make any sense at all ? I had a ruff 2017 it was bittersweet I had to let go of some people of my life that I thought where LOYAL to me but in reality they really did show me who they really are .
“In A World Where You Can Be Anything Be Kind”
I have never been a person to follow drama in anyway I let that shit go years ago when I was a wife many moons ago It just wasn’t worth it but these past few months were nothing but drama and that was mainly my fault cause I was around and consumed by people that loved DRAMA !! and I kid you not the more I tried to let go and stay away from it , it just kept following me and it was really putting me in a huge funk and I really did loose myself I even lost the VALUE of my own worth so to speak I let someone convince me that I wasn’t a good fit for anyone for that matter I let people walk all over like a dam door mat and they did it over and over again one too many times. All this was going on in my life while trying to juggle a career and kids and keeping my inner peace in order, but the thing that I will say is that even thought all these people were running their mouths about me talking this or that and pointing fingers at me I was always the one that just really kept my mouth shut and never let it try to get to me and let it phase me but it did , it made me very upset and angry here I am defending the person that just did nothing but stomp and lie all over me and got the shit end of things…I really did try to sprinkle my positivity to better my relationship in Love & friendships for that matter but it never worked it always backfired Misery sure does love company …
As a child I never Imagined that all the real monsters in the world would be human, this is very harsh to say but if you knew the level of disrespect that had to witness you would be so shocked actually I’m still pretty shocked I don’t get how some people can just sit there and hurt other humans the way they do. I always try to turn my negatives into positives that’s just how I be and always will be and I instead of HATE I PRAY , I pray for those souls that need it the most cause you never know what battles others are facing, I was always waiting for a sorry that I was never going to get I was left more puzzled and confused why? because all I ever did in all my relationships was just love and be loyal and let the person know that hey I’m here if you need anything and sometimes that’s just the problem we are too available for others and that’s why people take advantage of you all the time. Sometimes people haven’t apologized because they’re ashamed. Forgive them anyway! Sometimes you have to be okay with a sorry you never got, forgiveness unblocks your blessings and frankly I am all for blessing!! there is simply no room in my heart for hate and anger that just isn’t me maybe cause I’m older now but I really am so proud of myself and how I have handled things Classy not Trashy and if trashy is your thing hey go for it your the one that looks like an idiot , Like I said this is the wrong generation for people with good hearts and if having a good heart is all what your all about then go for it baby gurl just keep your guard up . Iv’e learned a lot this past year that things don’t always turn out the way you planned , or the way you think they should …and also I’ve learned that there are things that go wrong and don’t always get fixed or get put back together the way they were before , I’ve learned that some broken things stay broken , and also that you can get through bad times and keep looking for better ones as long as you have people who love you.
“You wake up every morning to fight the same demons that left you so tired the night before, and that my love is BRAVERY”.
I can’t sit here and judge every single person that has ever done me wrong nor point the finger at others either cause remember when you point the finger at someone, there’s three fingers pointing right back at ya!!