I was only 16 yrs old when I found out she was coming and I was still a only a Child but making adult decisions on the side , for some weird reason I wasn’t scared that she was on her way and something told me that it was going to be a “she” because that’s how I had Imagined it , all the odds were against me and so was the world so I had to fight for her my mother had oppose to me having her but I did and because of that I was no longer her daughter in her exact words .
If it really wasn’t for my Emy I don’t know where I’d be, she knocked me straight to better myself , my future , my goals times was tuff I had the shitty end of it cause her father was one of the most senseless immature human being nothing never really made him change his ways sad but true, as my daughter was born and growing up and being faced with such difficult challenges for a period of a good 15 years I always knew I had my Emy and she always had my back , looking back at how things were I know it wasn’t fair for her to grow up with such a struggle but I did what I could going to community college full time working one full time job and a part time as well I can’t explain on how I did it but I did . I did promise her a better future better things and a Car I’m still working on those cause well have a little one that joined us he say’s he’s the man of the house and I am so lucky to have both of them they both have the greatest bond and are so close, I wonder if other moms feel guilty like I do , I always find myself saying sorry to them for their dad I wish they had the dad I had cause he’s always been my hero and still is my daughter always needs her dad I think but she had managed to live with out so many moments that he’s missing out on his loss not mine she’s already 18 yrs old and has grown up to be such an amazing woman it wasn’t till I had that awww moment that I was getting her ready to high school prom her boyfriend was to pick her up and off she goes to party her ass off I was worried the whole day but I knew I had to trust her and let go of the umbilical cord , her boyfriend told me he was going to take care of her for me so I had to run with that , seeing my beautiful daughter in her prom gown made me realize right there and then My little girl is not so little anymore and everything that I taught her about her morals and values self worth responsibility everything that me and her went through ran my mind in that short moment when I told her be good no drinking , no drugs , no sex, come home by 1pm , 18 yrs of memories gone like a bliss , it isn’t until you have your own kids when you really realized what unconditional Love is I think as a mother we will always worry and have that gut feeling that something isn’t right , sometimes I feel really selfish that I put so much in work and other things but then I realize I matter too and my kids are lucky that I am not one of those moms that party a lot , do drugs , heavy drinking , sleep around and have kids that I can’t afford lol or perhaps what about those moms that are criminals and are in jail for serious crimes or even those that sleeping around for money and care less about their kids and let them raise themselves …. Hail to the moms that make things happen whether you are scrubbing toilets at a local bank to make ends meet to a VP of company that takes their kids to private schools and annual trips around the world being a mom is a non-stop job with no pay but the benefits are so amazing that only a mother will get me , I’d like to think that I’m part of the super mom crew cause I lost count on how many times I had to save the world and go buy diapers and milk at the same time and keep myself sane at that and I look forward to the many yrs that come because someday my kids are going to make me grandmother and these moments that I’m living right now with my kids will be the greatest stories ever told to my future generation Indeed , now if your kids hate you then your doing something right
To describe my mother would be to write about a hurricane in its perfect power. Or the climbing, falling colors of a rainbow.” —Maya Angelou